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[01 10 12] |
[Hexed against anyone who'd turn him in]
I miss my piano. What I would do to just be able to touch the keys again. I've been composing though, I don't know how it sounds since I've got to play it in my head.
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| 114 |
[10 26 11] |
[Hexed Private]
I'm just waiting for the day that she gets us killed. He shouldn't trust her. I don't trust her. How could anyone trust her knowing what I know about her? I have to get rid of her.
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| 113 |
[10 13 11] |
[Hexed to friends]
All I ask is that if you're able to then have a shot.
I think I may try to convince Tristan to get some drinks with me. We'll figure it out but I think we owe it to ourselves anyway.
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| 112 |
[08 12 11] |
[Hexed against anyone who'd want to turn him in.]
Is the sky still blue in Diagon?
[Private to self]
Fuck me, I nearly thought one of the damned dogs were someone coming to get us. Or.. maybe that's just what I'm telling myself. I don't see or hear anyone so maybe it's the truth. Then again, like I could really trust my senses anymore. Fucking bitch can't be trusted.
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| 111 |
[06 28 11] |
[Hexed to Tristan]
Your dog owes me another pair of shoes.
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[06 27 11] |
two years later
Varying Locations, England
June 27, 2006
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| 110 |
[04 15 11] |
[Private to friends. ie People who know him and wouldn't sell him out.]
In case anyone has wondered, I'm staying with Tristan for the time being. I haven't gone back to my flat for over a month and I'm sure they're looking for me by now. Please don't go to my flat looking for me or you might be in danger. Carrow is viscous and will stop at nothing to get what she wants. I don't want anyone else to be hurt because of me. I've done enough already.
At least there is a piano here. I've actually been working on a new composition. The dogs are definitely a handful, but a pleasant one. I certainly can't complain.
I don't know how I feel right now. I feel safe? But at the same time, no. I'm dangerous.
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| 109 |
[02 03 11] |
[Hexed against Alecto Carrow]
Turns out I did lose my job. Also turns out dogs can be very occupying, enough so the loss of the job doesn't seem as mind blowing.
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| 108 |
[01 10 11] |
I think I just lost my job. Maybe not but I don't know what will happen. I guess that's what you get when you're insane you yell at your boss. We'll see. Mother fucker deserved it I deserve it she'll come tonight again last night I just couldn't stand myself this morning maybe he should have kept his fat fucking face away from me next time I'll do more than scream at him stop saying that
It's not true. You made it up
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| 107 |
[12 20 10] |
[Hexed to self]
At least this time wasn't as bad as the last. The Dark Lord is truly and dangerously frightful. I don't know whether I should be grateful that, as Alecto's creation recruit and obsession, I am more her responsibility than my own or fearful that it makes me more expendable than others. For now I'm glad to be alive. Or am I? I'll only do it all again any time I'm told to.
I know, I'm a coward. You telling me this isn't anything new, so go away.
[/hex]
Everything has been squared away with the closing of the Quidditch stadiums and handling the influx of comments and concerns of the public and anyone employed by the stadiums or the teams themselves. The Ministry has already started to pull extra people from the Department to put to use in other areas. I've yet to be reassigned but that may be due to my position. There's talk of temporarily suspending the whole MGS Department but nothing has officially been stated. I've requested not to be placed within the Inner Ministry.
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| 106 |
[11 22 10] |
[Hexed private]
Ever gone stir crazy from the silence of your own home. Seems like even the shadows have an oppressive aura about them. Feels like living in a sealed jar with no air holes poked through the top. I can't climb up the sides because they are too smooth. The jar gets shaken and tapped on by curious onlookers or malicious children and I can only hope at times that the jar will drop and shatter into a million pieces and end the silence with a deafening crash.
I can only lay on the bottom and listen to the echos of my own breathing. Echos that bounced around and come back to me sounding like whispers and laughter.
[/hex]
I finished my composition. I was recently inspired and couldn't seem to stop the music from echoing in my mind until I got tired of not being able to sleep. Writing the last note and playing from the beginning to the end was relieving and I finally had a full nights sleep.
I honestly hate this time of year.
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| 105 |
[10 13 10] |
So, I was sent home early last night because it was my birthday, even though I insisted I didn't need the time and there is far too much work still to be done in regards to the canceling of the quidditch season. I was sent home regardless, as though it were a gift. If the Magical Games and Sports department is down sizing or being redistributed all together, then I hope I get placed somewhere insignificant. It's not my wish to have any part in the fighting of this war.
Unfortunately She remembered it was my birthday and decided I wanted to see her face.
Back at work and people ask me what I did for my birthday. When have I ever given the impression that I like to talk about my personal life with the people at work. As if a birthday is something to talk about with anyone, just because we all have them.
I did, however, work on my composition for a few hours.
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| 104 |
[09 27 10] |
Saw this coming from one hundred quidditch pitches away. It was only a matter of time until the Ministry made up it's mind about quidditch. I kept expecting to show up to work and be told that we were putting an end to all things quidditch until further notice, and finally it happened. I was told to notify all league management of the decision and I've got to say that it puts a big question mark on a lot of things. What are all those quidditch crazed people going to do with themselves now? I'm just going to say it now, if suicides start popping up because of this, don't blame me. I was only doing what I was told to do. Also, if you're going to kill yourself because you can't stand life without quidditch, then it's really no big loss.
My department in the Ministry is busy with the shutting down of the game, but after all is said and done, are they going to shut us down? Integrate us into other parts of the Ministry I suppose. I hope they don't expect us to all start running out there and fighting Death Eaters. Because it's not going to happen here.
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| 103 |
[09 04 10] |
Time flies when you're preoccupied with things. Or when you're attempted to keep what sanity you have left. I only realized it was the end of the week as well as being September. A lot of big things happening. Some not so big. Nothing too special I suppose. I managed to get some time to clean my place for the first time in... has it been two weeks? Well the place was an incredible mess. I broke a lot of dishes when
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| 102 |
[08 25 10] |
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Home sick. Don't bother.
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[08 12 10] |
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Had an uneventful day today. It's a nice change. Was able to get work done, clean my entire place, and have some hours alone with my baby grand.
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| 100 |
[07 27 10] |
I will be attending the Towler & Towler expo next week as the Ministry official for the Department of Magical Games and Sports. It will be nice to see the final product and hopefully put the final Ministry approval for use. All paperwork and regulations really.
Never thought I would say this, but it will be nice to work outside of the Ministry building for a change. The new location is small and people work a lot closer to each other than we used to. I think I prefer a room of people who don't know me than a room of the same people sweating, grumbling, talking... everyday and all day.
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